Saturday, December 18, 2010
Talented Music
I was playing songs from some easy lesson books I knew well. Someone came up to me and asked if I could play in a promenade. I said to talk to my teacher, but she didn't get it for me. I should have got out of that class and taken something else then.
Jackie Evancho
She also messed up holding a note in the first song, "Silent Night." At the end on the repeat of the first verse. Who knows what else. I saw her on "The Tonight Show." It's nice to listen to it. In "O Holy Night" it sounds like she said, "needs." Night sounds like "nide."
She is quite serious when she sings. Well, I didn't hear, "the slave is her brother." Sounds like it's getting better, only like 4 songs on the CD, then there's the DVD.
It sounds like she would sound good with Orla Fallon who used to sing in the group called Celtic Woman. She's very good. I don't think Charlotte Church sings classical, anymore. Doesn't it sound like Jackie Evancho is staying in classical? I wonder if she was famous for singing at an early age. I've sung in choir longer.
She is quite serious when she sings. Well, I didn't hear, "the slave is her brother." Sounds like it's getting better, only like 4 songs on the CD, then there's the DVD.
It sounds like she would sound good with Orla Fallon who used to sing in the group called Celtic Woman. She's very good. I don't think Charlotte Church sings classical, anymore. Doesn't it sound like Jackie Evancho is staying in classical? I wonder if she was famous for singing at an early age. I've sung in choir longer.
Friday, December 17, 2010
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Cooties
When I saw some "hi class" Asians, likely Chinese, one brushed against me, but I thought they didn't like me. I totally acted like they had cooties as a reaction but didn't mean to. I should always remember to smile, but everyone was upset at these other people making noise and giving off bad messages. I wonder why we couldn't get away from those people looking at us. We were waiting for a tram and I think they followed us. The Asians seemed cool, and we went off to Epcot. I want to make it so in the future people don't act like I have cooties and actually corner me with other people around like that.
People at Disney
I think the Asian man agreed his daughter had a problem when I walked by and saw everyone kinda looking funny and I stayed aloof and things went thru my head. I don't know why I didn't smile, but the people in front of me acted like I had cooties.
It seems like an interesting challenge...
...to do dance and voice both. I think I would get fatter if I didn't do dance or some physical hobby that I can do. I can't wait until summer. I get to try out the end of March. It starts probably May. If I don't get in, I stay in the non-majors classes and try out again for fall.
How do people predict what is going to happen?
Giving the forecast. Sure, I wanted to do dance team like I said.
Like, howcome I grew up too old for any fun? I found that if I took school too much seriously, it was worse than out having fun. I just think of all the people in minimum wage who don't have special education on their job. My goal is to be famous and rich for dancing or singing. I like doing both if I haven't decided. It's good to do both dancing and singing. Maybe, I needed something to do since I didn't have many friends. I am maybe slightly more interested in dancing than singing. Instruments are cool, though.
Like, howcome I grew up too old for any fun? I found that if I took school too much seriously, it was worse than out having fun. I just think of all the people in minimum wage who don't have special education on their job. My goal is to be famous and rich for dancing or singing. I like doing both if I haven't decided. It's good to do both dancing and singing. Maybe, I needed something to do since I didn't have many friends. I am maybe slightly more interested in dancing than singing. Instruments are cool, though.
Those were the old days.
Slidell was interesting before we left. I like Orlando, though. I wonder if we all would have moved over here eventually. I wish I never left. The college was a bit tough. I need to re-audition for voice somewhere. First I might try to finish voice here at the associate level. I might leave to study somewhere else, dancing and singing.
I wish my brother went to public schools.
They built a new science lab at the school by our house. Curses to Katrina. He was gonna go to private. I had just went there. I went to 4 high schools, though.
Flag Team
I wish I stayed and did it. It was fun. I wish I did cheerleading before and when I moved dance classes other than ballet as well. Now I am gonna do an associates degree in dance. I have the audition info. all ready. I need to figure out how to take a bus. I also wanna take singing. I am more interested in the dance for my weight. I am and was gonna feature doing singing.
I should have stayed at Salmen.
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Moving to a Catholic school was fun, but I wish I stayed at Salmen. I wish I did Talented Theater from the first year or before, too. It would be fun to be in choir or try out for dance team. There was a girl with a famous family. I did cross country. There were two sisters who were big but shorter. The older one was skinnier and she did cross country. The younger one was about twice as big and inches shorter than me, and she did dance team. I couldn't believe they let fat people and intellectual people on the team. My big thing was like drama club and the arts. For instance, because my grandma on my mom's side came I didn't audition. Whoops.
Moving to a Catholic school was fun, but I wish I stayed at Salmen. I wish I did Talented Theater from the first year or before, too. It would be fun to be in choir or try out for dance team. There was a girl with a famous family. I did cross country. There were two sisters who were big but shorter. The older one was skinnier and she did cross country. The younger one was about twice as big and inches shorter than me, and she did dance team. I couldn't believe they let fat people and intellectual people on the team. My big thing was like drama club and the arts. For instance, because my grandma on my mom's side came I didn't audition. Whoops.
New Idea
I will try to do dance more than singing. If I have time I will take voice lessons at college. I want dance as my priority. I looked at how much I weighed and wanted to go down and do something more physical. The singing is coming along, but it's the weight that's bothering me personally. I'm about 152 1|2 when I usually am 151.
Hopefully, the schedule will let me do both. I'm comfortable with doing both.
Hopefully, the schedule will let me do both. I'm comfortable with doing both.
Well, my voice is not quite as ruined.
I better stop.
I know I can do it, though. I just can't keep going. Some spots were rough at first. I'm not used to talking loudly for a long time.
I know I can do it, though. I just can't keep going. Some spots were rough at first. I'm not used to talking loudly for a long time.
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http://cbxxxxxx.blogspot.com/2010/12/imdb_17.html Sorry for the rant, but they aren't sorry for it. I was under the impression that if Helena Bonham Carter can call her and Tim's son gay that other people accidentally using bad language for no bad reason other than simply what it says wouldn't be an issue, but it is and they're villains. After all, would have never happened if they never called their boy "going to be" gay. Yea, too much of what we do revolves around cursing to look cool or to get a point across in tough situations. Can you believe I ended up in a mental hospital the 2nd time? I sat around all the time for a little over a month, not long before my birthday. I can't let that happen again, no matter how mad I get. That was miserable, though. There weren't enough places for the females. Males had like 20 sofas, and we had 1. The ratio wasn't quite that. I have a feeling people want to know what I do and try to read my mind and then bother me when they find I'm mad. I'm mad at where I live for not letting me think straight and then getting me in trouble. And, there, I did get punched by a crazy lady who said sorry later. She punched the side of my face. Someone jammed their elbow hard somewhere a little away from where it could knock me out in high school when class was ending, maybe that class I switched hours in, Career Orientation, my first year of high school. M a g i c a l C h r i s t m a s ~ * |
My camera memory card ran out.
My family gets back tomorrow, so maybe this weekend when I look for a cell phone that works. My cell ran out at Disney after I went on Space Mountain. I was separated, too. We were on a schedule.
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Feeling Bad at Slips of the Tongue
I don't want to repeat them. One thing I said was stupid, like, "that stupid pen" except about people. I was being treated differently for what I post online like people can tell. So, I thought maybe using things like that in the right way if wanted to be used. I said it watching the movie and with my dad. I was mad and said other things. I wish I could redo my life.
Ballet
I will probably still take dance at the other community college. I just need to clean so things are smooth and I can think straight.
Singing versus Dancing
Now, I want to do singing instead of dancing. If I get famous for singing I can get a musical theater role on film and add in the dancing. If I really get my singing going, I can add the dance. I'm more concerned about singing because it's individual and age sensitive.
I just got Charlotte Church's Christmas DVD.
I like the high part she has in the song "Hark the Herald Angels Sing." She didn't sing so many Christmas songs that are well known, like "Sleigh Ride" or "Joy to the World" or "Jingle Bells" yet managed to get in "The Little Drummer Boy." What about "Winter Wonderland?" I still like it. She might have sang the other Christmas songs later. I wonder if people ever do multiple Christmas albums. I didn't listen to some of the songs, even if they are familiar or I know them. I just went straight to the favorites. People posted this on YouTube, so I was bored. I didn't realize or it didn't click that people loaded this from the DVD.
My Voice Is Ruined and Crusty
At first all I ever did was children's choir then adult's choir at 14. I started Talented Music at 15. When I was 14, my first year of high school, there was a different teacher. A Korean girl 2 years older 1 grade higher started 2nd semester. I should have started Talented Theater 2nd semester, but I did my 3rd year. My 2nd year olf high school I did Talented Music just with the Korean girl. She and the teacher were both violinists. My 3rd year, I did Talented Music by myself the same hour as American History Advanced Placement | Gifted. I eventually should have quit history that hour because it was too hard. She just lectured, no study aids, and I don't remember these things being covered in the test. That was 1st hour. There were some boys in 2nd hour. I started singing then. A lady used to come in and teach me. The Korean girl said she got in the class again to be with me, but we stopped singing after she came. The voice teacher was too busy.
What ruined my voice was in college taking voice and the way I changed how I sang. Now I can only sing vibrating my voice whereas before I never did. It doesn't sound the same. I want to take voice again. What holds me behind is having to clean my room a 2nd time. I just use my time to relax until I feel better. It's lazy, but I have to think about moving things from these little shelves and the money to get it.
What ruined my voice was in college taking voice and the way I changed how I sang. Now I can only sing vibrating my voice whereas before I never did. It doesn't sound the same. I want to take voice again. What holds me behind is having to clean my room a 2nd time. I just use my time to relax until I feel better. It's lazy, but I have to think about moving things from these little shelves and the money to get it.
I want Tim Burton to meet|marry my mom.
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I also felt bad at Disney.
People were all testy and it ruined the atmosphere. I guess they can't come find me now. I went in there so positive, I can't believe people wanted to get critical. It just built. I didn't go to my aunt's and grandma's, so me being sick explains it, though I tried. After awhile, it was too testy anyway.
Surprised
People like to get me in trouble. There were some weird people at Disney waiting to get on the tram. I think something I thought upset a little girl whose father was annoying. How could she see? I wonder who really thought of what passed thru my mind. I didn't want to spray it. They just want me in trouble. I tried to be sorry, but they wanted me in trouble instead. Sorry little girl. If you know her anyone...I guess I just have to hope she knows.
IMDb News Flash - Blake Edwards
Julie Andrews's husband died 2 days ago from complications of pneumonia at the hospital in LA with Julie Andrews and his children at his side.
Billy Ray
He doesn't look too happy in the picture, neither. He is usually seen with his dad, and his daughter is usually seen with the mom.
I guess they're weening him. He does seem a bit old to hold hands.
I guess they're weening him. He does seem a bit old to hold hands.
New Picture of Nell Burton from Nov 29
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I wonder why Tim Burton is strolling her and how this got a picture. He's strong enough to carry her, too. She's still tiny. She hasn't been strolled in awhile according to pictures online, comapred with before. This is the first picture I've seen for a few months.
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I wonder why Tim Burton is strolling her and how this got a picture. He's strong enough to carry her, too. She's still tiny. She hasn't been strolled in awhile according to pictures online, comapred with before. This is the first picture I've seen for a few months.
I just got the Jackie Evancho CD
and she sounds like she says, "the slave is her brother" very clearly. I hope she doesn't mean me.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Grandma
She'll be there when we get there, and we'll have spaghetti. Then, I will take a shower and go to bed. It should be fun.
I might skip out, I dunno. I wanna lie down now. I'm ready to go, though.
I might skip out, I dunno. I wanna lie down now. I'm ready to go, though.
Tim Burton
I hope he can be my mom's boyfriend because her age is closer than Helena's. I'm not supposed to tell, but just say he's just a little over year older. She was born in July 2 days before my dad + 9 years. This is serious. I'm sure they'd make a good couple, but I also like her with my dad. I wanna marry Tim Burton, too, but then I'd have 4 husbands.
I'm uploading a new video.
Helena Bonham Carter says her boyfriend twice. She used to say Johnny Depp was a boyfriend. She's always with Tim Burton.
That's what I call them now. She also mentions Tim Burton.
I'd like to know what message she's implying. I am not sure why she did that. She doesn't seem to care.
It's funny what people actually get away with. I don't get away for doing the right thing. It just isn't happening. I think she's been wowed at in tacky ways. People sense something about her feeling better than others. She sounds like she always wants to curse. It sounds like that dude there cursed in a tacky way.
That's what I call them now. She also mentions Tim Burton.
I'd like to know what message she's implying. I am not sure why she did that. She doesn't seem to care.
It's funny what people actually get away with. I don't get away for doing the right thing. It just isn't happening. I think she's been wowed at in tacky ways. People sense something about her feeling better than others. She sounds like she always wants to curse. It sounds like that dude there cursed in a tacky way.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Disney World
Well, we didn't take any pictures. First, we went to the Magic Kingdom. I went alone on Space Mountain, and it had like a 10 second series of 3 dips. I just rattled on. Then, Thunder Mountain where I had a scream. On Space Mountain, I closed my eyes for some reason. We went on the Norway ride in Epcot, which was a small thrill but a pleasant experience. Then we went on Spaceship Earth. I thought the beginning was neat, where they show cavemen and the beginning it seemed so real them with the woolly mammoth, though I don't know that they existed at the same time. Last but not least was Test Track. I screamed went it went fast at the end, too.
We ate at China, and I was gonna get a certain design of shirt with my horoscope. The lady there said to get the other kind for my size and rang me up without acknowledging I would buy it. I wish I saved my money to get a sweater from Norway.
We ate at China, and I was gonna get a certain design of shirt with my horoscope. The lady there said to get the other kind for my size and rang me up without acknowledging I would buy it. I wish I saved my money to get a sweater from Norway.
I got a part.
I cleared my schedule and I got a special part in the summer for kids. I guess I could act and had white skin and not a face shaped like an Asian, but I thought people could tell maybe saw my mom. We had a director named Grace with medium brown layered hair. That's interesting in high school I had 3 drama teachers for drama club and one the first had medium brown hair as well.
Alternating Weather
I just put a towel on the computer machine.
First, I was in a bedroom and was very cold for awhile. Next year I wasn't too cold. This year I'm putting up with it in the garage. For some reason it feels cooler now. Also the thing that rolls up is sealed by a wall.
First, I was in a bedroom and was very cold for awhile. Next year I wasn't too cold. This year I'm putting up with it in the garage. For some reason it feels cooler now. Also the thing that rolls up is sealed by a wall.
Fun About Flag Team
What was fun about getting in flag team was it would have been neat. I was wondering how well I'd do in school otherwise. I was already getting all As and this would probably keep me in shape. I hated how strict Salmen was about grades and how bad some of it was.
The Swim Dance Girl
Whoever she was, she was gone after Katrina when I took the minor and pre program at Loyola. I wonder if they sell copies of the show.
I wonder how many of 4 semesters
I will take dance classes. They claim a non-major program, probably fitness based.
I was allowed to go back again after a year.
I had already done art and switched that to piano. So, I moved and didn't do that and did ballet the whole time in Greater New Orleans and New Orleans.
So Sad
I could have done gymnastics until I was old enough to be a cheerleader, but after I said no when we moved I said yes and my mom said it was too much money. I wanted dance, and there was an affordable Spanish dance place I didn't like when I saw for wanting ballet. At the time I didn't feel like I'd be a cheerleader and well I haven't. I did gymnastics then until I turned 9 and we never did a handspring. So, I feel good that I've done so much gymnastics. I am practicing the bridge again. I will feel better after I take dance classes.
Acupuncture
I had a Chinese doctor who died but was not old of a heart attack. The acupuncture actually hurt me. This is when I was 16 in Slidell. He said he could use acupuncture to cure my eyes from glasses. I think he is descendant or something from doctoring the Chinese leader. Of course it didn't always hurt, and the doctor said it didn't. I was feeling sick. Like I felt bloated a little at the time and had a hard time. So, I guess I couldn't take a slight pain as well. I just wanted it to stop. What it does is insert air into your body and gets it flowing. I have no idea about the idea of air bubbles in the veins. I don't think it's inserted into vains, though, because it pops in and out. Some people seem to think there can be a cure for imperfect vision. I saw Twister with 2 friends and we were a little more closer. Awhile later I had to get glasses. I wasn't seeing the board well and it got me behind. I had just quit gymnastics, but I liked the way I looked later, just wasn't as thin though I stayed thin awhile and looked thinner in different ways. I remember those times. I read in The Tao of Pooh as in Winnie the Pooh that if you don't listen to the radio, how do you know what's going on in the world? Pooh says by going outside. Lots of people on the internet told me to go outside. Anyway, I don't see blurry stuff, but I can only read the E. It's just that it looks further away in clarity. The Chinese doctor in Greater New Orleans Slidell gave me some medicine balls that seemed a little like chocolate. He got me off the pills and said I didn't need them. He said bowel movement with an accent so I couldn't even tell what he said. Like, bole moement. I just looked it up. I thought it meant pooh, but it means intestines, or stomach. That was my complaint at the children's part of the mental hospital. Now it's also my complaint because I was looking skinny before staying somewhere for over a month. They were mean and now I have to get back in shape again. I'm getting older.
I sent this dude a friend request...
...on Facebook, and he isn't answering. I told him I was checking out other drama people and then left a note that he's the only one after I looked. I wonder if I should have not been so weird. I thought he'd add me.
For some reason...
the pictures don't show up on MySpace and I can't change the font. I added a note at the beginning about the font. I'll add one about the photos.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Dance & Singing
I want to get famous or get on a dance team or be a film actor, but I'm not sure what to do first.
I'm excited.
We're going to Disney tomorrow at 2 PM. I won't be back until maybe 11, but I'm not sure. It closes at 9.
Behind the Frige? Ew...
I think my dad left the toaster chord behind the refrigerator way in back. We use vinegar and water as anti-germs, so I wiped it down with some of that. It might make me paranoid, though. I don't want to think of that each time I see it.
Thinness
I got fat from taking bad ballet, and I saw this one girl who was great who must have swum. Well, I try to jog, but I might take off for winter. After I clean I might try because my life will be smoother that way. Some of it is taken care of, though, already. I just did the laundry that was on the floor by my wire shelf for some clothes storage.
Bad Ballet
My ballet classes weren't challenging enough. I should have taken it more seriously and forgot about piano or organ. That's what I'm doing now. I think I will feel better after doing dance and may start voice again, but I want to do these things while I'm young. I wonder what I can do about an interest in voice anyway. I feel like I have more potential to dance. I only sang in choir and was told I had a beautiful soft voice.
Singing
I had fun in Talented Music when a very big lady came in and taught me singing. She was the best of what I had. She was going for her doctorate probably in performance in voice. After another girl joined our class she stopped coming after a little while. I should have quit Talented Music the following semester.
Feeling Better Playing Around
I was able to spin more with confidence and am doing my bridge and backbend to the couch.
I just told my dad and that I was still interested in singing and asked why I don't sing now. I just said it's more fun with a teacher. I like to get in on what they know, like which songs to sing and feedback on what to fix other than saying just beautiful.
I just told my dad and that I was still interested in singing and asked why I don't sing now. I just said it's more fun with a teacher. I like to get in on what they know, like which songs to sing and feedback on what to fix other than saying just beautiful.
So how do the dancers remember all that?
I guess like piano once you get a certain level practice will help you remember anything. It looks like fun if you're ready for it.
I should have done cheerleading.
At the end of 3rd grade some girls stayed after school for cheer, but I felt funny. I should have seen I could do no more baton because I just was too nervous about my head being hit. If I stayed in gymnastics I could have been a cheerleader. Now I wanna do the dance major to get in shape. Generally everyone is accepted or I can take the non-major classes instead until I make it. I did ballet all along so feel fine. The dance major consists of half ballet half modern.
Spectrum
I think I am not as bad feeling about my hair being dark. I could try to get it lighter with that shampoo for blonde hair. I just feel I like my black hair and that it sets a good background. I just look whiter with dark hair, so I think it's like special. It does have red and sometimes tan|gold tints.
Dancing and Singing
Hard dancing to remember takes a lot of training.
I will give up singing for dancing, but when I finish I can go back to singing. I mean I'm doing a degree where I finish when I turn 26. It's the associate degree, though. I might move to UCF and do voice and try to get on the team or I can try out for cheerleading or take tumbling rather.
I will give up singing for dancing, but when I finish I can go back to singing. I mean I'm doing a degree where I finish when I turn 26. It's the associate degree, though. I might move to UCF and do voice and try to get on the team or I can try out for cheerleading or take tumbling rather.
Calling people fat
Well, I don't want to call anyone heavyset like it's fat but not serious. It depends on who you're talking to and like on the internet who is going to read it. If you were having a personal conversation generally we would say that. I just try to avoid all bad language. I can say I want a fat baby but I don't mean a swollen one.
Well, nigger doesn't usually come up.
Please don't fight me and bring up things that shouldn't be. I don't believe in a bad word just a bad way of using them or one with only a bad meaning. Crap means poo. Shit means trash. Piss means mad. Ass means butt. Nigger is actually a defense, but most people use it as an offense. Why can't people take the situation for what it is rather than thinking they're able to use it to make one's life worse. It's good to get it out unless it's something you're not supposed to do. Some people are so mean I don't want to see them use that. I try to avoid contact in that respect. Even if something as an off message comes up. There are certain people who already act like a curse word to you all the time and think they're always right though they're always mean and sarcastic. They would just be annoying to do so and it'd be too hard to bother fighting back because you know their game. I don't want to be responsible for something I typed and deleted in a Micky Mouse environment. I just consider I didn't really say that because I already don't mean anything bad.
So what on the need to curse.
Some people say don't do it, but they'll utter "crap" I'd imagine and curse a little more like I do when I'm kidding about something funny. I don't accept people who attack me and leave off on things we're not supposed to repeat. I was experiencing with the word "nigger," though some other people knew apparently. I think that no one really cares, though. There's nothing wrong with picking a word you like at all, especially if no one's looking and it's clear it's not going out of your way to call someone that. No one really would have seen. That's all. Nothing big. Just get it out and delete it and you're done. You didn't want to, but things happen like that. People seem to want to get on with life. Sometimes, cursing is not bad. It's so funny when English people curse. They say "ass" and "piss" apparently from my experience. It looks like no one cares about stopping them. I don't like that that when people aren't as at the time more articulately awake in a way that no one cares if someone bad does something. Also that doesn't fly is black people using "nigger" to say in front of people "sup nigger."
People should be scanned to see what they [can] provide.
If you keep looking at a picture and thinking about something, you will see into their destiny, their potential. Just pick any person and try to do it in a way that makes sense.
I've seen some girls look like boys and some males look like females. I used to want to be a boy when I was a kid. I feel that I am totally female. I don't have certain qualities that match a male, and I'm not another version of such in a way. For instance I expect a boy to be very intelligent and experienced. All I can expect from myself is to uphold myself as a female and my masculine side. It's almost like being gay. I think it is. Some gays might seem more like lesbians.
Like, I'm actually just hesitant and used to being a ... attracted ... I forget. I'm not used to seeing such boys that match my level of like how quick and awake and full of thoughts am I.
I just look like a girl. Ever since I started reading about like Little House on the Prairie and American Girls I've been a certain way. Before, I was a tomboy in gymnastics. It just all made sense all of a sudden. I think I have a good theme. It's very Dutch-French since I have that in my blood. In some ways it's German, which I have from a different side. I connect with the mostly Irish, too. The only thing I have more of is Chinese Indonesian because that's 50%. I didn't know before I had English, but I do, a little on the French side with the Native American indian, too.
I don't feel at a loss with my race because not only do I just do what I like and think is really best but because it's more like thinking what if the 50% was Native American, but it's not. It's really just white. You've seen Asians before. Some don't have a white side as far as how they are. If it's further south, it's always considered more European, but there are places to meet in the middle. I saw a tribes girl with white blonde hair in the middle of China and one with blue eyes. It was on Wiki and I was gonna go get it. I guess someone took it down. They have Middle Easterns with blonde and redhead kids apparently, as well, and there's a slew of ones with blue eyes. I saw one white blonde Chinese, but she looked very Mongoloid and what you'd call overly Asian looking.
I've seen some girls look like boys and some males look like females. I used to want to be a boy when I was a kid. I feel that I am totally female. I don't have certain qualities that match a male, and I'm not another version of such in a way. For instance I expect a boy to be very intelligent and experienced. All I can expect from myself is to uphold myself as a female and my masculine side. It's almost like being gay. I think it is. Some gays might seem more like lesbians.
Like, I'm actually just hesitant and used to being a ... attracted ... I forget. I'm not used to seeing such boys that match my level of like how quick and awake and full of thoughts am I.
I just look like a girl. Ever since I started reading about like Little House on the Prairie and American Girls I've been a certain way. Before, I was a tomboy in gymnastics. It just all made sense all of a sudden. I think I have a good theme. It's very Dutch-French since I have that in my blood. In some ways it's German, which I have from a different side. I connect with the mostly Irish, too. The only thing I have more of is Chinese Indonesian because that's 50%. I didn't know before I had English, but I do, a little on the French side with the Native American indian, too.
I don't feel at a loss with my race because not only do I just do what I like and think is really best but because it's more like thinking what if the 50% was Native American, but it's not. It's really just white. You've seen Asians before. Some don't have a white side as far as how they are. If it's further south, it's always considered more European, but there are places to meet in the middle. I saw a tribes girl with white blonde hair in the middle of China and one with blue eyes. It was on Wiki and I was gonna go get it. I guess someone took it down. They have Middle Easterns with blonde and redhead kids apparently, as well, and there's a slew of ones with blue eyes. I saw one white blonde Chinese, but she looked very Mongoloid and what you'd call overly Asian looking.
Well, I'm done with the washing.
I just have a 3rd batch of clothes. I think I will have a nice hamburger and maybe hot dog. I tried to eat to get thinner but now am concerned about me not being able to support myself, so want to eat to fix my posture and work out to keep trim. I so need to clean, too, but it looks like I'll get a nice rest and fun at Disney tomorrow. I have ready some sweatpants, sweatshirt, and underneath another long sleeved shirt. We're going to Epcot and maybe the Magic Kingdom.
Parents and Aunt in Dance
At an old ballet school, my parents did ballroom dancing. My aunt took ballet at a good school where she lived. She just went in with the kids, whereas I tried the adult classes. That must have been fun, though. I did go with kids before. I'm excited about the half modern whatever it is. I'm open to anything professional like that.
Age of Dancers
They seemed about the same age if not older, but I assume I am still the oldest. I don't think the people at the tryouts last time were all as young as 18. I walked out of the tryouts at a bad time because my shoes were getting too tight. I'll have to order some new ones for next time.
Practice
My bridges were doing good, but it looks like I need to practice again. I feel like I got heavier since. I think that if I don't get on a team it's because I'm getting older, but at least it will bring me personal satisfaction.
Dream
I was in a gymnastics place that had enough stuff for me to do, but I was waiting for some kids. At college gymnastics we had to wait for the kids at first. I quit it because it took so long to travel and we didn't even get much. When I finish cleaning I might go back more to doing bridges again. My weight is the main issue. I'm not very fat yet not thin enough to do this. I wish I found something transitional, like I want to do the dance major. I think I will do the dancing. I can sing on my own for now.
I'm going to take another hot bath.
I just have to wait for the laundry. It bubbles up the toilet, sink, and tub if you do both together.
I so need to clean. Suddenly I have papers taking advantage of the table for so long. I sorted out some of my notecards, as well. I might wait to clean until I feel more relaxed. If my stuff is clean, I might get on a better schedule and sometime work out again. I am not sure if I will wait until February or late January. It's just so cold here in Orlando.
I'm so glad my hair has grown back and I don't want to cut it. I might cut it to even it out. I have bangs growing in that I didn't like. I might like them with long hair, but I don't know. No bangs is just so easy. I can clip them back, as well. In several months, it will go into a ponytail. They are already to my ears.
I so need to clean. Suddenly I have papers taking advantage of the table for so long. I sorted out some of my notecards, as well. I might wait to clean until I feel more relaxed. If my stuff is clean, I might get on a better schedule and sometime work out again. I am not sure if I will wait until February or late January. It's just so cold here in Orlando.
I'm so glad my hair has grown back and I don't want to cut it. I might cut it to even it out. I have bangs growing in that I didn't like. I might like them with long hair, but I don't know. No bangs is just so easy. I can clip them back, as well. In several months, it will go into a ponytail. They are already to my ears.
Tim Burton and Jonny Depp's Movies
I want to reorder them again. They bring back to me memories of when I was younger. I've watched them several times. Life to me was okay, but now we live under the fear of murder and weapons of mass destruction. It's not enough to lay down one's life as a soldier. To me sacrifice is never okay. I can see someone very old dying, but it's still sad if they have a hard life and are not anciently old like they stuck in through. Most people are attached to their parents even in midlife and as seniors. It depends on if you were the first child or a later child.
Things just seem so different.
I like Tim Burton because he reminds me of an art teacher. I've never seen a director hardly like him, but maybe the teacher who reminds me of him as a person. I like Johnny Depp because we're both from Florida and where he lived, and I just connect to him as someone popular from the area. For instance, since we mostly all know Julie Andrews, we all feel the same thing about her and her movies that were famous, Mary Poppins and if you've seen The Sound of Music from a ways back. Also interesting is if you know she played My Fair Lady on stage for such a long time. She did some other things, like Cinderella. It was broadcast and she did it made special for her I think it 2 weeks taking off doing My Fair Lady.
Things just seem so different.
I like Tim Burton because he reminds me of an art teacher. I've never seen a director hardly like him, but maybe the teacher who reminds me of him as a person. I like Johnny Depp because we're both from Florida and where he lived, and I just connect to him as someone popular from the area. For instance, since we mostly all know Julie Andrews, we all feel the same thing about her and her movies that were famous, Mary Poppins and if you've seen The Sound of Music from a ways back. Also interesting is if you know she played My Fair Lady on stage for such a long time. She did some other things, like Cinderella. It was broadcast and she did it made special for her I think it 2 weeks taking off doing My Fair Lady.
Monday, December 13, 2010
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I have met 4 members of the opposite sex I liked enough to consider either a parent or spouse. I have been blessed that none of them were really totally taken. It's not even so much falling in love as it just is a nice relationship. No one really makes me flutter in this sense. You just have to network and keep in touch with people when you are too lonely and don't know how to meet more people. I've also met people of the same sex that sort of make my heart flutter, but not really. It's nice to know that people are happy and that no one is exactly the same. A lot of it is about what is important to you. You may have an ideal, but that ideal can't hold for all the different kinds of people there are out there. Some are just a little more special or maybe not as hesitant. Once you know someone, you want to keep in touch. I pass up many boys in Orlando I'd like to get to know, but none tops actually knowing someone well that you like, not that new people won't want you. Oh and sorry I sent you and your family and Karen all those e-mails. No one answered except my aunts and I stopped e-mailing you guys. Also, Karen hasn't kept in touch, said I said something mean about you, but she made it up. I was just wondering why she was cornering you as a friend because she used to just get mad at me all the time and won't admit it. I guess it made her uncomfortable. She hasn't even changed her MySpace pic from the pic with a pirate hat. I hope you still wanna be my friend, but don't have to keep up with me.
I have met 4 members of the opposite sex I liked enough to consider either a parent or spouse. I have been blessed that none of them were really totally taken. It's not even so much falling in love as it just is a nice relationship. No one really makes me flutter in this sense. You just have to network and keep in touch with people when you are too lonely and don't know how to meet more people. I've also met people of the same sex that sort of make my heart flutter, but not really. It's nice to know that people are happy and that no one is exactly the same. A lot of it is about what is important to you. You may have an ideal, but that ideal can't hold for all the different kinds of people there are out there. Some are just a little more special or maybe not as hesitant. Once you know someone, you want to keep in touch. I pass up many boys in Orlando I'd like to get to know, but none tops actually knowing someone well that you like, not that new people won't want you. Oh and sorry I sent you and your family and Karen all those e-mails. No one answered except my aunts and I stopped e-mailing you guys. Also, Karen hasn't kept in touch, said I said something mean about you, but she made it up. I was just wondering why she was cornering you as a friend because she used to just get mad at me all the time and won't admit it. I guess it made her uncomfortable. She hasn't even changed her MySpace pic from the pic with a pirate hat. I hope you still wanna be my friend, but don't have to keep up with me.
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